大學(xué)英語(yǔ)泛讀第三版《Shame》中英文雙譯

1、 .wd. .wd. .wd.ShameWho felt ashamed? And ashamed of what? Why did the narrator write about his calf love for the little girl? Whats the relationship between love and shame? Having understood these, you will have got the key to this story. 48I never learned hate at home, or shame. I had to go to sch

2、ool for that. I was about seven years old when I got my first big lesson. I was in love with a little girl named Helene Tucker, a light-complexioned little girl with pigtails and nice manners. She was always clean and she was smart in school. I think I went to school then mostly to look at her. I br

3、ushed my hair and even got me a little old handkerchief. It was a ladys handkerchief, but I didnt want Helene to see me wipe my nose on my hand. The pipes were frozen again, there was no water in the house, but I washed my socks and shirt every night. Id get a pot, and go over to Mister Bens grocery

4、 store, and stick my pot down into his soda machine. Scoop out some chopped ice. By evening the ice melted to water for washing. I got stick a lot that winter because the fire would go out at night before the clothes were dry. In the morning Id put them on, wet or dry, because they were the only clo

5、thes I had.Everybodys got a Helene Tucker, a symbol of everything you want. I loved her for her goodness, her cleanness, her popularity. Shed walk down my street and my brothers and sisters would yell, “Here comes Helene, and Id rub my tennis sneakers on the back of my pants and wish my hair wasnt s

6、o nappy and the white folks shirt fit me better. Id run out on the street. If I knew my place and didnt come too close, shed wink at me and say hello. That was a good feeling. Sometimes Id follow her all the way home, and shovel the snow off her walk and try to make friends with her Momma and her au

7、nts. Id drop my money on her stoop late at night on my way back from shining shoes in the taverns. And she had a Daddy, and he had a good job. He was a paper hanger. 47I guess I would have gotten over Helene by summertime, but something happened in that classroom that made her face hang in front of

8、me for the next twenty-two years. When I played the drums in high school it was for Helene and when I broke track records in college it was for Helene and when I started standing behind microphones and heard applause I wished Helene could hear it, too. It wasnt until I was twenty-nine years old and

9、married and making money that I finally got her out of my system. Helene was sitting in that classroom when I learned to be ashamed of myself. It was on a Thursday. I was sitting in the back of the room, in a seat with a chalk circle drawn around it. The idiots seat, the trouble-makers seat. The tea

10、cher thought I was stupid. Couldnt spell, couldnt read, couldnt do arithmetic. Just stupid. Teachers were never interested in finding out that you couldnt concentrate because you were so hungry, because you hadnt had any breakfast. All you could think about was noontime, would it ever come? Maybe yo

11、u could sneak into the cloakroom and steal a bite of some kids lunch out of a coat pocket. A bite of something. Paste. You cant really make a meal of paste, or put it on bread for a sandwich, but sometimes Id scoop a few spoonfuls out of the paste jar in the back of the room. Pregnant people get str

12、ange tastes. I was pregnant with poverty. Pregnant with dirt and pregnant with smells that made people turn away, pregnant with cold and pregnant with shoes that were never bought for me, pregnant with five other people in my bed and no Daddy in the next room, and pregnant with hunger. Paste doesnt

13、taste too bad when you are hungry. 43The teacher thought I was a troublemaker. All she saw from the front of the room was a little black boy who squirmed in his idiots seat and made noises and poked the kids around him. I guess she could not see a kid who made noises because he wanted someone to kno

14、w he was there.It was on a Thursday, The day before the Negro payday. The eagle always flew on Friday. The teacher was asking each student how much his father would give to the Community Chest. On Friday night, each kid would get the money from his father, and on Monday he would bring it to the scho

15、ol. I decided I was going to buy me a Daddy right then. I had money in my pocket from shining shoes and selling papers, and whatever Helene Tucker pledged for her Daddy I was going to top it. And Id hand the money right in. I wasnt going to wait until Monday to buy me a Daddy.I was shaking, scared t

16、o death. The teacher opened her book and started calling out names alphabetically.“Helene Tucker“My daddy said hed give two dollars and fifty cents .“Thats very nice, Helene. Very, very nice indeed.That made me feel pretty good. I wouldnt take too much to top that. I had almost three dollars in dime

17、s and quarters in my pocket. I stuck my hand in my pocket and held onto the money, waiting for her to call my name. But the teacher closed her book after she called everybody else in the class.I stood up and raised my hand.“What is it now “You forget me. 49She turned toward the blackboard. I dont ha

18、ve time to be playing with you, Richard. My daddy said hed. Sit down, Richard, youre disturbing the class. My daddy said hed give.fifteen dollars. She turned around and looked mad. We are collecting this money for you and your kind, Richard Gregory. If your daddy can give fifteen dollars you have no

19、 business being on relief. I got it right now, I got it right now, my Daddy gave it to me to turn in today, my daddy said And furthermore, she said, looking right at me, her nostrils getting big and her lips getting thin and her eyes opening wide, We know you dont have a daddy. Helene Tucker turned

20、around, her eyes full of tears. She felt sorry for me. Then I couldnt see her too well because I was crying, too. Sit down, Richard. And I always thought the teacher kind of liked me. She always picked me to wash the blackboard on Friday, after school. That was a big thrill; it made me feel importan

21、t. If I didnt wash it, come Monday the school might not function right. “Where are you going, Richard?I walked out of school that day, and for a long time I didnt go back very often. There was shame there. 53 Now there was shame everywhere. It seemed like the whole world had been inside that classro

22、om, everyone had heard what the teacher had said, everyone had turned around and felt sorry for me. There was shame in going to the Worthy Boys Annual Christmas Dinner for you and your kind, because everybody knew what a worthy boy was. Why couldnt they just call it the Boys Annual Dinner, Whyd they

23、 have to give it a name? There was shame in wearing the brown and orange and white plaid mackinaw the welfare gave to there thousand boys. Whyd it have to be the same for everybody so when you walked down the street the people could see you were on relief? It was a nice warm mackinaw and it had a ho

24、od, and my Momma beat me and called me a little rat when she found out I stuffed it in the bottom of a pail full of garbage way over on Cottage Street. There was a shame in running over to Mister Bens at the end of the day and asking for his rotten peaches, there was shame in asking Mrs. Simmons for

25、 a spoonful of sugar, there was shame in running out to meet the relief truck. I hated that truck, full of food for you and your kind. I ran into the house and hid when it came. And then I started to sneak through alleys to take the long way home so the people going into Whites Eat Shop wouldnt see

26、me. Yeah, the whole heard the teacher that day, we all know you dont have a Daddy. 48羞恥誰(shuí)感到羞愧什么使他羞愧為什么作者要描寫他對(duì)這個(gè)小女孩青澀的暗戀愛與自卑之間到底有什么聯(lián)系理解了這些，你將找到這個(gè)故事的主題。 48我在家從未有過(guò)憎反感、羞恥感，而自從去了學(xué)校，我就有了這樣的感受。記得大約7歲那年，我得到了一次深刻的教訓(xùn)。那時(shí)，我喜歡上一個(gè)叫海琳塔克的小女孩，她膚色白皙，扎著馬尾辮，舉止也很優(yōu)雅。她在?？偸且轮麧?，成績(jī)優(yōu)異。我覺(jué)得我去學(xué)校主要是為了看她。我會(huì)梳理好自己的頭發(fā)并帶上一塊舊的小手帕。盡管這手帕

27、是一個(gè)婦人的，可我卻不想讓海琳看到我用手擦鼻涕的樣子。天很冷，水管再次冰凍，盡管家里沒(méi)有水，但我仍會(huì)在每天晚上清洗我的襪子和襯衣。我會(huì)拿上一個(gè)罐子去本先生的食品雜貨店，將它放在蘇打水冷藏柜下面，然后掏出一些冰塊放在里面。到了晚上，我就可以用那些冰塊化成的水來(lái)洗衣服。那年冬天我常常生病，因?yàn)樵谝雇頎t火會(huì)在衣服烘干之前熄滅。到第二天早晨，不管那衣服是濕還是干，我都會(huì)穿上，因?yàn)槟鞘俏椅ㄒ坏囊路?。每個(gè)人的心中都有一個(gè)海琳塔克，她就是你所想的一切優(yōu)點(diǎn)的代表。我喜歡她，因?yàn)樗屏?、整潔、人緣好。如果她走在我回家的路上，我的兄弟姐妹就?huì)大聲叫道“海琳來(lái)了，然后我會(huì)將網(wǎng)球鞋的鞋面在褲腳上擦幾下，希望我的頭發(fā)不

28、那么凌亂，普通的白色襯衫更加服帖。接著就沖到路上，如果我知趣的話，便不會(huì)走得太近，這時(shí)她就會(huì)向我眨眼并問(wèn)好。那是一種很不錯(cuò)的感覺(jué)。有時(shí)候，我會(huì)一直跟在她后面走，鏟去路上的積雪，并試圖和她的媽媽、阿姨做朋友。晚上，我會(huì)在從小旅館擦鞋回來(lái)的路上將人民幣放在她家的門階上。 她有個(gè)爸爸，工作不錯(cuò)，是個(gè)糊墻紙工。 47我猜想到夏天我便會(huì)把海琳忘卻，但是22年以來(lái)，在那間教室發(fā)生的事情，使她的面孔在我腦海里揮之不去。我為了她，在高中參加擊鼓活動(dòng)，在大學(xué)打破了某項(xiàng)記錄。甚至當(dāng)我站在臺(tái)上的麥克風(fēng)邊上聽到掌聲時(shí)，我也是希望她能夠聽到這些的。一直到22歲，我結(jié)婚了，工作賺人民幣了，她才終于從我的生命中淡去，不再影

29、響我。當(dāng)我為自己感到羞愧時(shí)，海琳就坐在那間教室里。那個(gè)周四，我坐在教室的后面的位子上，座位周圍被人用粉筆畫了個(gè)圈，代表這兒坐著的是個(gè)白癡，是個(gè)麻煩制造者。教師認(rèn)為我是個(gè)笨蛋。我不會(huì)拼寫，不會(huì)朗讀，不會(huì)算術(shù)。我就是個(gè)笨蛋 ！教師從來(lái)不會(huì)花心思去注意到你因?yàn)闆](méi)有吃早飯因?yàn)槎亲雍莛I而沒(méi)有集中注意力。你所能想到的也就是中午，中午還能不能到得了呢也許你可以溜進(jìn)衣帽間，偷一些孩子們大衣口袋里的午飯來(lái)吃。一點(diǎn)兒吃的，比方漿糊。你不可能真的拿漿糊當(dāng)飯，或者將它們涂在面包上當(dāng)三明治；但是有時(shí)候，我還是會(huì)從教室后面的漿缸里舀幾匙漿糊。懷孕的人口味很怪，而我卻是滿懷貧困，滿懷污垢和令人掩鼻的臭味，滿懷凄涼和寒冷。我

30、從來(lái)沒(méi)穿過(guò)專為我買的鞋子，我的床上還擠著另外5個(gè)人，可是隔壁房間里沒(méi)有爸爸。并且饑餓一直與我同在。當(dāng)我非常餓的時(shí)候，漿糊吃起來(lái)也就不那么難以下咽了。 43教師認(rèn)為我是一個(gè)麻煩制造者。她總是在教室前面看見一個(gè)黑人小男孩愚蠢地坐在座位上，東張西望制造噪音影響其他孩子，卻看不見這個(gè)孩子之所以弄出聲音是想引起教師的注意。那一天是周四，黑人發(fā)薪日的前一天。福利金通常是在周五發(fā)放。教師要求每一位學(xué)生問(wèn)他們的父親可以為社區(qū)福利基金捐多少人民幣。在周五晚上，每位孩子都會(huì)從他們父親那兒拿到人民幣，并在周一將人民幣帶到學(xué)校。我決定我要給自己買一個(gè)爸爸。我口袋里的人民幣是靠擦皮鞋、賣報(bào)紙掙來(lái)的。并且無(wú)論海琳塔克從她爸爸那兒拿多少人民幣，我都要超越它。我現(xiàn)在手里有人